I remembered that being awesome, being happy and having fun is a state of mind. I stayed up really late painting last night and had a blast. I had to work at getting back into my groove but once I got my paints sorted out into the 32 color rainbow, I was set for art. I’m never as happy as I am when I’m elbow-deep in paint. I’ve got many ideas that I wanna do but I’m not really going to have time until this week is over. Then, be prepared! I’m attacking my art and it will maybe be attacking me.
I feel like I don’t really have a place in which I fit in as much as I’d like to. My old friend groups have pretty much broken up and I have yet to make friends with a new group. I do have my online friends and my BF’s friends, but that’s not quite enough considering what I’m used to. Friends that I saw every day and who owned their own little slice of real estate at school. I belonged.
I think this is why I’m having inner turmoil. I am a social creature and most of that is GONE! I’m lucky to be confident in who I am, though, to not completely lose it and take up activities that are better off avoided. xD I’m lucky to have met Kevin and Josh, my boyfriend and best friend, when I did because who knows what I would be like right now without them!